After a long hard couple of years of tough lessons, I am finally coming back. But much improved, better version of me!
So, part of my recovery and my commitment to helping as many people as I can, I am starting this blog where I will be upfront and open about everything and hopefully connect with people so they know they are not alone and that someone understands.
2018 was the accumulation of years of working well beyond my limits, and feeling like I couldn’t drop anything as everything was so important. How do you choose between a business that supports the community, employees and my family, the high complex needs of one of my children, the mental health needs of another, high stress of dealing with NDIS, 24 hour needs of both children, dealing with the court system etc.
So January 2019 decided for me and my body said you’re stopping. And I did. And for most of the year I was not the person I used to be. My strength was gone, my tolerance was gone. I got to experience anxiety and depression and ups and downs and overwhelm and anger and sadness and grief and isolation and some very low moments.
I could not see how I would regain any of my strength and tenacity that I was known for. Was this a new reality? If so, I better get used to it. I started using the phrase ‘now that I am older’ more. Because that was my reason for feeling and being this way.
And people would quiz me saying, what are you talking about, you’re not old!
But I felt old.
And, now I don’t. I feel re-energized. I know there are a lot of people relying on me. My employees, my friends, my family, my community, other families needing advice, support etc. and I need to push out of this and be there for all of them. again.
So, I am. I still have a ways to go but I am on the way and I will blog here and hopefully continue to inspire others that they can do this too.
TBC.